everything you do get reinforced
After I started this writing practice, I quickly noticed that I started feeling the need to take benefit out of the insights I was having. This bought me the karma of feeling the need to share anything I learned. I started seeing potential posts everywhere I looked inside my own head.
I stopped being a river and instead I become a clogged pipe that needs to occasionally remove these clogs to keep working.
I don’t know if something like this will ever work, but I’m certain it won’t today.
Past me, if you’re reading this, I want you to know that every time you try to reach for something better, you make yourself worse at enduring its absence. What you truly want is not to build the perfect context to be, but it is to be able to be in any context.